Friday – Unemployed, Chasing My Dreams
Third Attempt – Day 4 of My “30-Day No Alcohol Challenge”
7:46 AM
I woke up feeling like a million bucks today! No alarm, just pure natural waking up vibes.
Last night, I had a crazy dream that could be a blockbuster movie! It was suspenseful, thrilling, and honestly, I couldn’t believe my subconscious came up with that storyline. But enough about dreams, let’s talk about the waking world.
Now, I’m savoring my morning coffee, ready to dive into some painting. It’s my “artistic recovery week,” as I like to call it. No stressing about how to sell my artwork online and make a living from it. Just pure creative expression, and it feels so liberating. I’m going to lose myself in the colors and let my emotions guide the brush.
Oh, and tonight, I’ll wrap up that video I started watching last night. It’s all about the detrimental effects of alcohol on the brain and body. After seeing it, I’m pretty sure I won’t be craving a drink anytime soon. But for now, while my energy is at its peak, I’m channeling it into my art. Morning person power, right?
I can’t help but feel grateful for this newfound clarity and focus. This journey of self-discovery and sobriety has been eye-opening, and I’m starting to see the positive changes it brings to my life. I look forward to each day and the creative possibilities it holds. Here’s to embracing the mundane and extraordinary, and living life to the fullest.
9:32 AM
Oh, sunny days by the lake! They always make me crave a little adventure and relaxation. I can’t help but daydream about having some drinks and dancing in the morning sun, surrounded by nature’s beauty. But I know better than to give in to those thoughts. I’ve been down that road before, and it’s not worth it. Those fleeting moments of bliss would be overshadowed by feeling tired, unmotivated, and having silly arguments with my boyfriend. Plus, I’d end up being a couch potato all day, numbing myself with alcohol and binge-watching random YouTube videos. Not the kind of day I want!
So, I’ll take a break from my painting for now and focus on reminding myself that this “blah” feeling from Anhedonia will eventually pass. I just need to be patient and wait it out. So I’m rewatching this insightful video (below) that talks about Anhedonia after addiction and the struggle to feel pleasure after getting sober. It’s reassuring to know I’m not alone in this journey.
But hey, it’s not all doom and gloom. I’ve realized something awesome – exercise is like a secret happiness booster! Whenever I get moving, whether it’s whipping the snipper around or mowing the grass with that old push mower, my brain gets a little happy dance going. I should definitely incorporate more exercise into my recovery process. Not only will it be good for my body, but it might also be the key to lifting my spirits.
I’ll take it one step at a time, appreciating the little moments of joy, like the natural high I get from moving my body. Maybe I can create a routine around it, turning exercise into a fun habit rather than a chore. That way, I’ll be not only making progress in my recovery but also adding a dash of happiness to my daily life.
10:21 AM
I did it! I stumbled through a workout video, probably looking like a silly walrus, but hey, it worked!
I feel so much better now, like a burst of happy energy just hit me. I should remember that cravings are just a sign to get up and move!
12:17 PM
It’s been a busy day, and I just had to take a moment to jot down my thoughts and feelings. Allan, my boyfriend, was out in the garden working on our little patch of green heaven, and I couldn’t resist checking out what he was up to.
You should have seen the smile on his face, the one that comes from doing something truly satisfying. He’s nurturing those plants that will feed not just the two of us but also my parents. It warms my heart to see him so invested in our family.
I can’t help but notice the stark contrast between Allan when he’s sober and when he’s had a few drinks. When he’s sober, he’s a whole different person – full of energy, enthusiasm, and motivation to get things done. But when he’s had one too many, that light dims, and he loses that drive to be productive. It’s a reminder of how alcohol can affect people, even those we love, and how important it is to stay mindful of our choices.
And it got me thinking… What about me? How do I behave when I’m intoxicated? I know I’m not at my best, that’s a given, but I can’t help but wonder if I ever have that same smile on my face, the one Allan had today. It’s a bittersweet realization because, on one hand, it’s a reminder of the happier times when I’m not under the influence, and on the other, it makes me worry about the times when I might not be my best self.
It’s funny how life can be a rollercoaster of emotions and reflections. Today, as I look at Allan and his garden project, I’m reminded of the importance of staying on track and focusing on what truly matters.
12:56 PM
I had my coffee, and now I can feel the anxiety creeping in. Maybe it’s time to switch to decaf tea in the mornings. It could be contributing to my alcohol cravings, so it’s worth exploring.
1:18 PM
While painting, I couldn’t help but think about my health and weight. Focusing on these positive aspects of my life might be a great distraction from the poison I’ve consumed for so long. I’m grateful I made the decision to change before things got worse.
1:48 PM
Another craving hits, but I won’t let it drag me down. I’ve faced these moments before, and I can handle it. Phew, alcoholism recovery is like a rollercoaster of emotions!
3:02 PM
Whew, it is hot out there! This heat wave is no joke. Every step I take feels like I’m running a marathon, and the sweat is just pouring down my face. Not the most glamorous look, that’s for sure.
On a different note, my boyfriend went to the liquor store earlier and picked up a half pint and two tall boys of beer. It’s one less can of beer than he had yesterday, and I can’t help but feel a little relieved about that. He mentioned he wants to wean off drinking, which is great for his health, but I can’t help but also think about the financial side of things.
Money is tight, and alcohol isn’t exactly cheap. I know I should be focusing on being supportive and happy for his efforts, and I am, truly. It’s just that we’re facing some financial struggles, and alcohol costs money we can’t spare right now. It’s a bit of a balancing act, but I’m grateful that he’s trying.
9:33 PM
Today was decent. Allan and I had a good day together, and he surprised me with a sweet message on a napkin, which read “I love you xoxo”. That little gesture makes my heart swell with love.
Now, I’m trying to unwind, but the anxiety of not having a job is creeping in. But you know what? I’m not going to let it ruin my evening. I’ll watch some YouTube videos, and eventually, I’ll doze off.
Overall, it’s been a day of ups and downs, but I’m proud of myself for staying strong in my recovery journey.
Let’s see what tomorrow brings!
– That Anonymous Artist
Supplementary Info: No Alcohol Day
As we wrap up this blog post, I’d like to take a moment to highlight an important initiative observed worldwide – “No Alcohol Day” celebrated on October 2nd each year. On this day, people are encouraged to choose non-alcoholic beverages and reduce their alcohol consumption, promoting a safer and healthier lifestyle. The World Health Organization recommends limiting alcohol intake to 1 drink or less on a day for women and 2 drinks or less for men, as moderate drinking has shown some potential health benefits. However, it’s essential to find the amount of alcohol that works for your body and to be mindful of the guidelines set forth to protect your health.
Participating in “No Alcohol Day” or events like “Dry January” can have numerous benefits. Cutting back on alcohol drinks can reduce the risk of liver disease, improve sleep quality, and lessen the likelihood of experiencing hangover symptoms. Moreover, limiting alcohol consumption can help prevent alcohol-related diseases and withdrawal symptoms in the long run.
During “No Alcohol Day,” individuals can still enjoy a wide variety of alcohol-free and low-alcohol beverages that taste just as delightful as their alcoholic counterparts. Remember, it’s not about giving up on having a good time; it’s about making a conscious choice to reduce alcohol consumption and enjoy the day without the need for alcoholic beverages. So, whether you’re at a public park, a social gathering, or just relaxing at home, consider opting for non-alcoholic options and encouraging others to join in this healthy initiative.
As we celebrate “No Alcohol Day” this October and look forward to its yearly observance, let’s work together to create a world where alcohol-free choices are readily available and where adults can enjoy their day without excessive alcohol consumption. Stay safe, stay healthy, and raise a glass of water to mark this essential day in the world alcohol calendar! Cheers to a brighter and healthier future!