Friday – Unemployed, Chasing My Dreams.. and Trying to Stay Alive
Fifth Attempt – Day 3 of My “30-Day Experiment”
Today started off a bit dreary with rain pouring down outside, so we canceled our morning walk. Instead, I decided to tackle the messy living room floor, and boy, was it a workout in itself! I want to be able to use some of that space to exercise, doing bodyweight and cardio workouts, especially when I need a break from my painting projects.
At this point, I’m not fixated on alcohol, which is great for squashing cravings. Instead, I’m fixated on being able to defend myself (only if absolutely necessary!) from the criminals and individuals dealing with addiction who pose a threat to me.
Speaking of which, there’s been quite a situation in our community lately. Some young adults committed a terrible crime and, would you believe it, they’re still walking free! I mean, it’s been over a year since they murdered a bootlegger, and they’ve been to court twice, but they’re still out there, causing trouble. Since the murder, they’ve robbed houses, stolen guns, and even set fire to someone’s car. It’s like justice is taking a long vacation, and I just can’t wrap my head around it.
In times like these, I can’t help but feel a bit anxious about our safety. I wish there was a way to feel secure without constantly locking ourselves indoors and avoiding these troublemakers.
But hey, enough of the gloomy stuff. I guess we just have to stay vigilant, look out for one another, and hope that justice eventually catches up with those criminals. In the meantime, I’ll continue to focus on my painting and workout routines, finding solace in creative expression and working on becoming physically strong.
I’m trying my best not to let all this mess dominate my thoughts. Life should have room for the mundane and extraordinary alike. When the world seems chaotic and unjust, I’ll do what I can to spread positivity and light in my own little corner.
I’ve been deep into my painting today, and I’m contemplating ways to earn some extra money without rushing through my artwork. That’s when I stumbled upon Redbubble and Society6, where people can buy prints of my art on various items. It’s like passive income, and that could be just what we need to improve our financial situation.
Today, I’ve been day dreaming quite a bit about my future. I have this vision of building a house on our land (which is down the road from the camp), complete with fences, gates, and security cameras. And you know what else? Two well-trained, big dogs to guard us. My dreams may seem a bit depressing these days, but it’s the reality we live in, and I’m going to work towards making it better.
Right now, money equals security. It used to be about basic survival needs like food and shelter, but now it’s about taking security to the max. I want to provide for my family and ensure they’re safe. Life has thrown some curveballs at us, and it’s time to buckle down and focus on what truly matters.
Things got a little tense between Allan and me today. Withdrawal symptoms are tough on both of us, and we need to give each other space to balance our emotions. We’ve come a long way in our relationship, but sometimes we have rough moments. I need to remember that a few bad moments don’t define our entire relationship.
Today has been quite a rollercoaster of emotions and experiences. I just realized that my period has started. No wonder I’ve been feeling so down lately and had those intense sugar cravings last night. It always has a way of affecting my mood so quickly. But you know what? This time, I’m determined not to let it drag me down like it usually does.
My typical reaction to feeling low during this time would be to run to the liquor store and grab a whole bunch of alcohol to cope with the emotional whirlwind. It might sound a bit bizarre, but hey, we all have our coping mechanisms, right? However, today, I’m putting a stop to that pattern. Instead of drowning my sorrows, I’ve come up with a better plan. I’ve decided to take a break from my painting for a while (it’s scorching hot out there anyway) and explore something new and exciting. I’m going to learn how to put images of my paintings online!
The idea of showcasing my art on the internet feels like an adventure, and I hope it’ll keep my mind focused on something positive and productive. It’s about time I channel this energy into something creative rather than letting it consume me in negativity.
In the background, Allan, my wonderful partner, is stepping up to the plate and conquering Mount Dishmore. The dishes piled up over the past week (or maybe even more), and I admit I’ve been slacking on my domestic duties. But bless his heart, Allan is almost done with the Herculean task. It’s moments like these that make me truly appreciate having a supportive partner in life.
As I sit here contemplating my decision to venture into the digital world of art, I can’t help but feel a mix of nervousness and excitement. The thought of sharing my artwork with a wider audience is both thrilling and terrifying. What if people don’t like it? What if my vulnerability is met with criticism? But hey, I’ll never know if I don’t give it a shot, right?
Allan’s dealing with some cravings, but he’s determined to handle them. He went outside to spend time with his squirrel buddies, and they always manage to put a smile on his face. I’m not as skilled at squirrel bonding, but that’s okay—I’ll be busy learning about the art of putting my artwork online.
I’ve got a pounding headache, and my period is still doing its hormonal thing, making me feel low. I’ve been in bed since 4 PM, trying to find some relief in the darkness. I can’t journal anymore.
– That Anonymous Artist
Supplementary Info: The 30 Day No Alcohol Challenge
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Remember, the 30-day alcohol experiment is about personal growth and discovering your inner strength, not just about quitting alcohol. You have the willpower to achieve your goals and create positive habits. Embrace the challenge, and in just 30 days, you’ll be amazed at the positive impact it can have on your life. So, go ahead, start your alcohol-free month now, and see the incredible transformation that awaits you!